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I honestly can't sift through my thoughts to find something I understand... something I can share.

He was supposed to be here this week. I forgot about that until a few hours ago. It's weird//funny to think that at one point he was everything, and now he's nothing. How fast it happened; too fast for me to consciously notice.

It doesn't matter much anymore. It doesn't even hurt like it used to. I don't know what's worse; the pain or the emptiness...

I lead a zoo trip yesterday. We took a group of 61 kids from low income families on a field trip. Talk about tiring. I didn't even really get to enjoy the zoo. I was too busy trying to keep our own personal zoo under control. I can't complain with a serious face though. Although I came home dead tired with a migraine and dehydration, I loved all the fun we had.

Today is my spring break. A whole of one day!!!! Tomorrow I am locking myself in the parasitology lab to study. Saturday I should be at the shelter, and Sunday I'm at the church. No big deal.