Thinking can be a dangerous game at times. The thoughts have two paths to tread down; positive or negative. In the past, my thoughts have taken a liking to the treacherous footing of the negative path. I'll be honest in telling you that they have previously led me to a depressing bottle or the cold company of a stranger. This is no longer the idea I have of myself. I'm not scared of my thoughts anymore because I will no longer fill my days with poor thoughts while time ticks by without me.
I am spending my time alone noting where I am and where I want to be. I am dreaming big and acting out. I am daydreaming of love and hoping for adventure. My life is my own and I am ready to stand alone with less tears and more exuberant smiles.
It's funny because when you're a child, you believe you can be anything you want to be; go wherever you want to go. There's no limit to what you can dream. You expect the unexpected, you believe in magic, in fairy tales and in possibilities. Then you grow older and that innocence is shattered and somewhere along the way.... the reality of life gets in the way and you're hit by the realization that you can't be all you wanted to be, you just might have to settle for a little bit less. Or perhaps a variation of what you once wanted
I am working on accepting the variation of my original plan; on opening my heart to new ideas... new people; on admitting that past is past and the mistakes I've made and opportunities I've missed are from this point forward irrelevant to who I am and what I want.
I am pushing myself to be who I truly am. I have found my energy and my light; it was waiting for me all along. These are a few things I have done to brighten my days, and I am asking you to do the same for yourself.
Turn the music up. Get out of your car and dance at a stoplight. Force your dog to slow dance with you even if the only thing on his mind is his dinner. Sing to all those in the parking lot of your local Walmart. Take in the glances and the stares you might get as if you were born to be watched and admired. Love everything around you and be thankful that you get to experience it. Tell everyone how much you love your life. Make someone smile by acting like a fool.
Be selfless, even when every bone in your body tells you not to. Accept the past and forget about it; move forward in every aspect. Be spontaneous. Learn something new because you want to instead of need to. Don't ridicule the opinions of others, no matter how ridiculous they may seem compared to your own.
Ask yourself why you have held on to the people you hold dear to your heart. Follow your heart. Love and be loved. Develop a fairy tale in your head to save you when you need a break.AND THEN THERE'S THE PART WHERE YOU KNOW I HAVE TO SHARE SILLY PICTURES, BEAUTIFUL PICTURES, AND SOME QUOTES. I JUST LOVE IT. ENJOY!
