Take me away

I just remembered that I have clean laundry sitting on my bed that I need to fold before I go to bed. :(

I'm sitting here, thinking about the next two weeks... and everything seems so.... so fake! This all can't be happening. I can't be done with this semester. I can't be leaving Tampa. I can't be flying to New Hampshire to spend the summer learning about wildlife care. I just can't.... or maybe I can.

I've decided that there are certain people I just can't speak to anymore. I say one small indefinite thing..... meaningless. The next thing I know, it's gone to Canada and back and it's got an accent. The little snowball that was my statement was pushed down a hill and has returned to smother me. Getting the picture?

I want to go riding. I want the chance to trust the direction the wind blows. I want to let go of all my worries and trust whatever majestic beauty I find myself with. I want the petty details....the things that shouldn't bother me but do.... I want them to go away//if only for a moment.

Can you do something for me? Take me away. Lay on the sand//grass//roof with me. Stare up at the sky and let our minds wander into the areas we so often avoid. Let me listen to your heartbeat//to your breathing. Forget that the world around us exists. Simply be in that moment with me.

Take me away.