Decisions & Reminders

    At times, we find ourselves in need of creating ultimatums. We all know them and we all hate them. If you've had the pleasure of experiencing one of these stressors, regardless of the side of the fence you found yourself... you understand how emotionally challenging they can be.
    When they're against you: Everything seems like the wrong decision and those decisions don't feel like your own. Every step is met with a moment of breath withheld.
    When you're making them: The fear of actually following through lingers everywhere and escape is impossible. Sleep is lost and the dreams you had turn upside down with confusion.
    Don't write them off just yet, however. These depressing and dreaded moments in life act as reminders of how strong our emotions really are. I recently made a decision with myself somewhat like an ultimatum//one the other party was unaware of. Each and every moment seemed to last forever. I begged myself to change my decision and questioned my strength when the moment was within reach. My "ultimatum" required cutting off a relationship if a long planned introduction wasn't made. The thought of simply letting go of something I've given so much of myself to killed me. I was ready though..... ready to make a decision that would break not only my heart, but his.
    On to the end of this miserable story. Everything worked out. I made sure of it. My lesson: This decision helped to remind myself that my feelings weren't fake. I have been questioning myself for a while. I wasn't sure if this was something I really wanted to devote my heart to. I found myself thinking on multiple occasions that this was something I enjoyed more when it was simply a daydream. By forcing myself to take action, I rekindled what I thought I had lost.
    This isn't to say that it made anything easier, but it gave meaning to what seemed like nothing.

Every hard decision is one that needs to be made. It's hard for a reason, and it's well worth it in the end.