Non-metaphorical walls

    My cousins provide me with endless entertainment. The baby now crosses her arms grumpily when she's annoyed with you while her bottom lip pouts. She dances and sings too. We watched a movie yesterday, and Braveheart was mentioned in it. The line was funny, so we all giggled. Leanne laughs so Roberta and I laugh even harder knowing she has no idea why it was funny. Then she stops and asks "Who's Braveheart?"... yet again making everything much funnier.

    I'm no longer in love with the thrill of learning. The four walled classroom has ruined it for me. Learning used to be my source of happiness and freedom. I'm now in a self created prison of classrooms with no windows or nature; my voice and passions lost in the black hole that is the stack of textbooks on my desk. I'm slowing drifting away from happiness with each page turned.
    I want to learn by doing. I want to be out in the world discovering new things under overturned rocks. I want to smell the breeze and have the time to decipher every smell from the next.
    This summer, I learned by doing. My experiences required a few books, but they were books of my choice. When I learned why a touch-me-not was so named, I touched my fingers to the seed and felt the explosion of the small pod.
     I could easily say goodbye to school and depart on new things. Sadly, I have a determination and pride too hard to break (even if for my own sanity). I'll finish school and find myself searching life for my next love.


---The following is just a bunch of random things that have caught my attention at various times these days ---

Lost down some old back road. Lost in a song on the radio. Lost in your deep blue eyes. I don't care if we spend all night lost. 

To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better. I do have arms to give you a hug, ears to listen, and a heart; a heart that longs to see you smile again.

    A lot of my goodbyes tend to be short and weak, because speaking brings out the tears I try so hard to hide.

I miss you. It feels like forever since I last saw you. I want to see you. I want you to hug me. I can't even put into words how much I actually miss you right now.

    I wonder what you think of when you hear my name.

I love when you smile, but I love it more when I'm the reason.