I thought it would be better....

    Tampa has found a way to bring me back. I'm only 1/3 of the way moved in and I have no motivation. I had this same lack of motivation from the beginning. The view from my window is what any city fan would call spectacular. Previous to the prison I created, I would have found myself staring at this view with no concept of the time passing. In this moment, I'm looking out the window with no emotions being stirred. I do however see a bird (maybe a hawk) perched in a pole holding the net around the baseball field. That's the only part of the view I have any interest in. Sadly, the interest is minimal. I can't seem to get past the walls.
    My bedroom is small.... very small. I have about two feet between my bed and furniture to move throughout. The living room is large and spacious. The kitchen seems to be designed by someone who doesn't know what a kitchen is. The cabinets are too far to reach without stretching or using a chair (even the lowest shelves). The counter space, or lack there of, consists of one third of a full counter with the rest being taken up by a sink. With our dish rack we are left with no counter space. The stove only has two functioning burners. The fridge is shorter than I am. There is an entire empty wall in the kitchen that could have been utilized for counter space, yet it remains empty. The table is sufficient for two people, but four live here. The bathroom is unnecessarily large. There is a sink in the bathroom, but another next to the front door.

    I don't feel like myself here. I've been quiet. My living room is currently full with friends, but I am sitting in my room looking at a view I can't enjoy. Normally, my pictures are the first thing to be unpacked. My walls are close to bare at this moment. My desk isn't organized. I can't find my hangers. I'm finding that half of the things I'm unpacking are useless. Why didn't I figure this out before?

    Classes start tomorrow. My first class is behavioral biology at 8am.

I think I need to just get out of this building. The air here is thick and I was unprepared for it. I can almost see the humidity.