Who's gonna come around when you break?

    Life has a not so subtle way of reminding us of the important things we so easily forget, even if moving past them can be beneficial.
    I sit and I wait. I'm different//I'm not the same girl who used to stand strong when people did me wrong. My walls have a purpose. I've learned who to let through and who not, or so I thought. I've recently (very recently) been reminded why those walls exist..... why I'm so slow to trust people.
    I need to know whether or not I should invest my time, my energy, my heart into whatever this is. I'm fighting with myself. I'm torn between learning from past mistakes and having faith in you.
    I thought you were what I needed. I thought you were going to be the missing piece.... at least for a while. Now, I'm not so sure.

    I'm tired of losing my smile. You're breaking my heart before you even had the chance to mend it. Please stop making me hate you. 

    I'm giving advice I can't follow. We're told that we learn from mistakes//by doing//by failing. Our mistakes? Our doing? Our failure? I don't ever seem to learn from my own past and the small, silly mistakes I make.... or seemingly small mistakes. Others have the opportunity to learn from them however, which brings us back to the advice. The advice I give is based solely on my own experiences and when I don't have the experience, I have nothing but a shoulder to offer.
    I'm starting to believe we fail so others can learn. For them to learn, we have to continue failing. Once they learn.... maybe we start to follow suit.


"Who's gonna pay attention to your dreams? Who's gonna plug your ears when you scream?.....Who's gonna hold you down when you shake? Who's gonna come around when you break?....You can't go on thinking nothing's wrong."