Let me fall for you

     The library calms me. The hushed conversations provide a novel feeling for the day. The presence of people isn't overwhelming. I don't feel the need to be somewhere else in an attempt to avoid the annoying tendencies of those around me, mainly because those annoying people never seem to drift toward that "weird building filled with smelly books." I guess there's a reason we don't find them there....... not to imply anything. :)

    I'm prepared. Yes, the semester started 3 weeks ago, but it isn't official until the exams start rolling in. Tomorrow, I am faced with my first biopsychology exam. Wednesday; general physiology. Next week; behavioral biology and microbiology. Give me a few less hours sleep and I'll be ready.

When I wake up to something like this I can't help but feel like everything is going to be alright.

 

Good Morning Beautiful,
How was your night? I hope you slept well. I thought of you and went to sleep with a smile on my face. I hope you have a good day today. I will be thinking of you.

Lots of kisses,
Matthew

    I try to explain how he makes me feel, but I find myself lost in a mess of words I can't seem to straighten out. I stumble and trip over my own giggles interspersed in my jumbled speech. 

    He makes me happy. I haven't felt this happy//loved//optimistic in an unspecified amount of time that I can't seem to determine. He leaves me with an uncontrollable smile with the simplest of actions. 

    Matthew is the one thing in my life that I FEEL is concrete. I don't worry that he'll change his mind or that I'll wake up one morning to find him on the other side of the fence with judging eyes. 

    I don't hide anything I am with him. I tell him the truth//how I feel//what I want//what scares me. I've never felt this comfort. 

    We spend time together without the need to be doing something. Being in the same room is enough. We can sit on the bed and try and finish a crossword puzzle//watch his favorite team (even when I'm not a fan)//sing songs we don't know the words to//dance to our own music//laugh at nothing//smile for no reason. We can forget that we ever tried to be something for someone or tried to be happy. I stopped trying the moment I learned his name.