To a place I yet know

    As my departure from "home" gets closer and closer, a new fear grows. A fear brought on by uncertainty. I have no clue what to expect from my internship... from New Hampshire... from all that time without the things I know and love.
    Along with that fear follows excitement and joy. From all the candidates, they thought me worthy enough of this opportunity. This is an important stepping stone to my future. I am grateful for the opportunity and am excited to learn all it has to teach me.
    As much as I want to cherish and hold on to the time before me now, I want it to pass so I can live the life I have worked so hard to build. My life is here//my life is now//but tomorrow holds an excitement I have yet to experience. Tomorrow is what I work for.

    After all that, I still wish I had the opportunity to let the wind take me wherever it flows. The greatest feeling I have ever felt is leaving while knowing that everything behind me will still be ok. I can walk away and be happy with my direction and the state of what I left behind.    

What if this isn't what I want?

    When I see you again....I won't try to hide the tears in my eyes or the cracking of my voice. I'll run to you for a hug and step on your toes. Our heads will clash as we fit ourselves together, but I won't feel any pain. You'll have to remind me to let go because I won't want to. I'll forget about the fears, the expectations, and the judgments. I'll want you, regardless of the comments. As I always have and always will.

"There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever"