Scroll through the titles until you find one that seems even mildly interesting. Read it and be amazed at how easy it is to relate to every word on your screen. Spend a moment connecting words to real life; to what you feel every day of your life. Suddenly find yourself looking for more titles; you're hooked. You can't escape it so just give in. Soak in the beauty that is honesty and convince yourself to change yourself. You want to be more honest and run through the streets confessing your love and having new adventures. Once you close the tab, take it all back. The excitement only lasts for a moment and you're back to being the same as before, but those words will follow you around. Eventually, you will do something adventurous or tell someone just how much you have loved them since your meeting.
Thought Catalog. Here's a little taste of what I have been reading today. Seeing as I was thinking about confessions of strong feelings I have that I have convinced myself can be classified as love, all my titles has related to love//sex//heartbreak. Find your title and annoy your Facebook friends with 50 postings of blogs. I do it all the time. :)
Let it out. Let the love out.
Read this quote by Harvey Milk.
Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.
Harvey Milk said this decades ago but it has never felt more relevant to how we live our lives today. When did we become so afraid to love someone with vulnerability? When did we become so fearful of spilling our guts andbeing who we are? It sounds corny but it’s true. A few months ago, after a long time of doing the elaborate modern dance and keeping my feelings in, I let them out at 5 a.m. to someone and it didn’t go well. I could see this person make the switch in his mind. I was the “crazy emotional” one now. I told the truth and I was going to pay for my sins.
We need to move away from this constant need of coming across as calm, cool and collected. WE WEREN’T BUILT TO BE CALM, COOL, AND COLLECTED. If we were, it wouldn’t feel so fucking exhausting all the time. It would, you know, come naturally to us. You know what comes naturally to human beings though? Being open, being messy, being raw, being unfiltered, having lots of feelings. Why should we have to stifle our true nature? Let’s go after the things we want, let’s love each other brutally and honestly, and not worry about the consequences. Let’s release the feelings inside of us and let them land somewhere special. Otherwise, we might have a lifetime of longing in front of us.
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