Let Things Go

    I'm constantly battling with myself; trying not to run back to you. We're on opposite sides of a string and you've stopped pulling. It's floating life less in the space between us//neither one allowing their hands to reach out.
    I wanted to let you go and to walk away. So, you let me walk away... without a breath of fight, without a word. At that moment, I had the strength. Then you had to go and tap my shoulder. Just enough for me to turn around and forget where I was going. And here we are.... 3 weeks later and I'm still waiting. Even though you've obviously come to terms with my decision.
    I'm done. It was all a selfish game. The last time I saw you//the secret goodbye//the lure on the pole you're not watching. Looking back now, I realize how easy it was to spot. I was reacting to your goodbye with distance. Miles of distance crammed between the embrace, the kiss, the space between our chosen corners.
    One thing I am proud of; I walked away and didn't look back. Maybe the goodbye was mine.

    I embark tomorrow on Alternative Break: Round Two. Spring Break 2012. Savannah, TN. I get to continue saving the lives of abused, neglected, and forgotten animals. All while making friends with the horses next door. :) Expect pictures.... lots and lots of pictures.

I am ready, now more than ever, to start clean and live the life I know I can. I'm applying for dream jobs. I'm saving lives. I'm working toward being the best I can be, and no one can stop me.